Wednesday, October 22

When You're Nervous About Something New

I’ve said it before and I’ll probably say it again, but I don’t particularly like new things…at first, anyway. Change is hard for me. It's necessary, I know, but still hard.

Sometimes I walk into a new situation and feel like I did walking into a new school in seventh grade. All the old insecurities flood back in, and I think, “This is just so awkward.”

But the older I get, the more I've realized that things haven’t necessarily gotten easier for me, I’ve just learned how to mask my insecurities better.

A small part of our BTG team from Fall Conference!
Last week I had the privilege of being a part of a conference with a group of women that I love. One of the special pieces I got to be a part of was a video that shared women’s stories before each session.

In the video, I talked all about how fear has overwhelmed and ruled much of my life, and yet ever-so-slowly, God has begun to walk with me down the road to face my fears.

Afterwards, a woman on our team came up to me during a break and told me how my story encouraged her. She said, “I never would’ve guessed that you struggled with fear and insecurity; you always look so put together.”

And all I could do was smile and say, “Isn’t that always what we think when we look at others?”


I know I do.

Yet the truth is that others often feel just as insecure or awkward as we feel. And I have found much more freedom in being honest with others about who I am than trying to hide behind some facade of what looks good on the outside, but isn’t really true about who I am inside.

I know I’m not alone. Women, all over the world, are sharing honestly about who they are, what they struggle with, mistakes they’ve made, redemption that’s been found.

I love it. I breathe deeply and soak up those stories because they resonate with my story.

And so, this week, I'll once again step into what is uncomfortable for me: I will travel to a blogging conference with my sister Kristin. A blogging conference, you guys, where I will tell everyone that I am a writer (remember how hard this is for me?!?)!

I will face my fear. I will be real. And I will make new friends who are in the process of facing their fears, too.


This week we are once again linking up with Jennifer Dukes Lee for TellHisStory, Holley Gerth with Coffee for your Heart and the SDG Gathering!

8 comments :

  1. Love the authenticity here! Hope you have a fabulous time at the conference! (I'm glad I linked up next to you at #TellHisStory.)

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    1. Thanks Kristin for your kind words and for stopping by :)

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  2. I relate to this too. We think everyone around us is confident and together, when inside, most of us still have at least a remnant of that 7th grade feeling of awkwardness. But stepping out in faith anyway, in fear anyway, is awesome. I'm learning to do that more and more too; just show up!

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    1. So true Lisa, I love that "just show up!" I think I'll remind myself of that this weekend :)

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  3. I'm not sure if my previous comment posted, but I just wanted to let you know I'm praying God rocks your world at the conference. It's going to be so fun!

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    1. Thanks for the encouragement Jen! I appreciate it!

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  4. My friend, you are not simply a writer, you are an author! Have so much fun at your conference!

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  5. Honesty is so much better than fake bravery. I think so man walls come down when we realize we aren't the only one. You'll do great!

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